Archive for December, 2012

Give me a hand, writing with my handwriting

Posted in General Scribbings with tags , , , , , , on 31 December 2012 by misselisabethuk

Recently I have found myself writing more on many different topics, from different emotional points of view, for different reasons (formal and informal) trying to develop a sense of writing for fun.

For a while now I have purchased a preferred brand of disposable ink pen as I thought this was the answer to my scribbling ways.  I enjoyed writing with this brand of pen and, therefore, I took more care over and pleasure in my writing – with great results.  I found, however, that I was slow at writing well with this pen, which is now only used for special occasions.

I needed to find a pen I could write with quickly to a reasonable standard, well, at least a standard other people could read if necessary.  In my search I came across a brand of biro distributed by Banner with an excellent ink flow/weight etc. for a budget price, which felt good – I was a convert!  So now I have a set of black, blue and red Banner biros with me all the time.

What I actually realised was that it wasn’t just the pen, although it helped, that resulted in my style of writing it was also my mood which influenced the results.  Different moods resulted in different variables such as holding the pen differently, writing at different speeds, more or less flamboyant lettering and some days I could accurately execute the writing of the letter M and the number 3 (which has plagued me all my life).

Half of this obsession with my writing came from an incident early in my career which left me scarred with the realisation that my writing style was never going to be the most fanciful elegant script or indeed legible most of the time to anyone other than myself (and sometimes even I had trouble reading what I had written).

For those of you wondering how I was scarred, I will tell you….  My very first job involved writing names and addresses on envelopes which I tried really hard at but felt embarrassed about doing due to my not so elegant writing.  I completed the task and thought I had done, in my opinion, a good job.  I arrived in the office the next day to find that they had all been re-written.  No-one said anything to me but I could sense an air of tension in the office.  I shrugged it off as I did with things like that when I was 18 but as you can see I still carry the emotional scar today, so it made a mark on me.

So with all my musings about my writing I have decided to do something about it and have identified it as an area of personal development and growth for me to work on in 2013.  I will never be the best, I know that, but if I can continually improve myself then that is good enough for me.

Hope you all have fantastic New Year celebrations and when making your resolutions, remember, they don’t have to be big.  Personal growth in any form is worth putting the effort in to.

Wishing you all a very healthy, prosperous and rewarding 2013!

Peace X

“Writing is the only profession where no one considers you ridiculous if you earn no money.” Jules Renard

The option to do nothing is NOT an option!

Posted in Daily Jollop with tags , , , , , , on 31 December 2012 by misselisabethuk

What are you going to do with your life?

You are all ideas and no damn action!

It’s time to step on the action pedal and make a choice, even if it comes to nothing…

The option to do nothing is NOT an option!

Opposite the Hays Galleria, London – December 2012

Posted in Daily Jollop with tags , , , , , on 24 December 2012 by misselisabethuk

Taken from the Hays Galleria, London – December 2012

Numb – Day 3

Posted in Numb with tags , , , , , on 24 December 2012 by misselisabethuk

Today was like an out of body experience, detached, mostly due to my recent lack of sleep.

Watching people going about their business, I stood mute without senses.

My puffy eyes started to go down and I hardly cried at all today.

The heaving crying has now been replaced by deep sighing.

I was very quiet today. Completely out of sorts. Lost.

Questions now occupy my mind, why? when? how? If?

Will I ever be myself again…..?

Numb – Day 2

Posted in Numb with tags , , , , , on 23 December 2012 by misselisabethuk

My face is swollen today from crying most of yesterday.

My heart aches. I’m in an emotional fog.

I exhale and my breath hangs in the air.

I am in slow motion, whilst the world around me rushes past.

Go on, make someone’s Christmas….

Posted in General Scribbings with tags , , , , , , , on 21 December 2012 by misselisabethuk

I was asked recently by a friend what I wanted for Christmas and I paused for thought….

Over the last few years Christmas has taken on a different meaning for me. Every year Christmas seems to start earlier and every year I refuse to acknowledge its existence until at least November. Being a September baby it seems no sooner am I recovering from my birthday that Christmas is raising it’s ugly, commercial head.

Don’t get me wrong I enjoy having a reason to get together with family and friends but it’s a sad state of affairs that it takes Christmas for some people to make the effort to come together, when for the rest of the year they are immersed in their own lives and day-to-day issues without a second thought to those people. It takes 5 minutes to make a connection and could make someone’s day or even week.

So when asked what was on my list, I told them I didn’t have a list and this is why. I feel privileged to have everything I need and when I think about the millions of people who are without a roof over their head or food, having a list doesn’t feel quite right.

Christmas for me is about (but not limited to) the quality time you spend with the people in your life. It’s about smiling and putting a smile on other people’s faces. It’s about sharing joy and compassion with your fellow human beings. It’s also a time to remember that this should not be limited to a couple of weeks a year, that there are 52 weeks in which you can make a difference!

I wish you all a very merry Christmas and urge you to make a difference to even just one person because for them it could mean the world.

Numb – Day 1

Posted in Numb with tags , , , , , on 5 December 2012 by misselisabethuk

Today I cried.

Alot.

I could not stop.

You ripped out my heart.

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